Hello. My name is Crissie. I am here… because I understand. because I get it. because I am ready to share my heart and my experiences. The good moments. And the not so good moments. My struggles. My ups and my downs.
I am hoping that through some of my words I can one day help others- even if it is just a little bit.
I remember the day I truly realized I was officially ‘widowed’. I remember going to my computer and typing into google: ‘widowed with a baby’ or ‘widowed mommy’. Well…. here I am. I did this for you (and me). I did this because I too find it a little helpful to hear (or read… and now finally write) that I am not alone in some, or many, of my emotions.
So…. now, I will share a little bit about me.
We all have a story. However, I know you aren’t necessarily here to read my story… so I will simply introduce myself.
If you haven’t already guessed… I am a widow. I am a military widow. I am also a mommy. On Valentine’s Day 2011, I received a phone call that my husband Andy had been shot in Afghanistan (USMC). I was 35 weeks pregnant. Five days later…. my world officially stopped for what felt like an eternity. My husband died (one of the hardest things I had to do was take my husband off life support while being thousands of miles away from him). About a month after that… our son came into this world. His name is Landon. 🙂 He is truly a blessing to me. He is my world. My everything. And he is a spinning image of his dad (not to mention, he has SO much of his dad’s goofy personality).
OH. And we now have a dog (german shepherd). His name is Sarge! He has been the perfect addition to our little family! ❤
I continue this journey while in graduate school to become a LCSW/Therapist… and to one day help others deal with grief, acceptance and loving/living again.
Find me on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/widowedmommy/
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Widowed Mommy 
I want to let you know I’m so happy I came across this. I’m currently 35 weeks pregnant with a little girl named Chelsea. I just lost my boyfriend of 5.5 years this past Tuesday in a car accident. He was killed instantly.
We were living 3500 km away from our home town in Ontario, Canada. I had to drop everything and drive back.
I’m going through so many emotions right now and I don’t know how I’ll ever get through this. Is there a day the crying stops? Is there a day I’ll be happy again? How am I going to tell our daughter what happened? I want her to know how amazing her father was. It’s not fair that he was taken away from us. I’m so scared and lost and I don’t know how I’m going to raise our daughter without him. I won’t be able to give her everything he wanted her to have. He was everything to me.
Friend have created a donation page for me and while that will help financially for the next little while, I don’t know how it will help me deal with stress. It’s so amazing what people are doing for me. Ben would be so happy and proud. The messages are so sweet and it’s amazing to see how many people loved this amazing man and how many lives he influenced. He was truly a one of a kind. I hope his daughter is just like him.
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Ally,
First and foremost I want to apologize for just now seeing your comment and reading it. I go through phases where I try to be active with blogging and writing and then I hide away from it. However, I am back at it and hoping to stick to it better now. Thank you so much for sharing with me what is going on right now. Being that it has been 8 months since you have posted this… I know you know that everything is going to be alright. I am not sure where you are in life at the moment but I can remember where I was when my little boy was only 6-7 months old. Nights were the hardest. Feeding the baby in the middle of the night alone… it’s hard. BUT you are strong. Your little baby will always be a rock for you. A part of your strength to move forward in life. Take time to grieve because you need it. I took a whole year off from life (school) after having my baby. I do not regret it one bit. Only you know what is best for you. I will be posting soon about different tips for talking with your young child as they grow about their deceased parent. I have been down the same exact road as you when it comes to dealing with the grief with a newborn baby as they grow as well. I like to call it “grieving the absence” when a child who never met their deceased parent starts grieving for them. It will be tough- I won’t lie… but, never ever let that stop you from sharing with your daughter how much her dad loved her and still does. Never stop sharing what her dad was like and how much she is like him. I know right now you probably feel terrified… but I promise you that everything will be okay! My son is now almost 5 years old and I still struggle with him asking questions or saying things like “Mommy, when am I going to get a new daddy?” but… I know that in time we will all find that again. Also, if I can give any advice right now… it’s do not rush into anything just so that your daughter can have a father figure…. be very picky. and if you do find love again… do not be afraid of it but always keep your daughter’s father alive by talking to her about him even if you are in a relationship. I believe she will appreciate it! I hope to hear from you soon… and I will try to post my next post soon! Blessings! Also, find me on facebook as WidowedMommy also. I may respond faster there if you ever need to talk.
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