“Mommy, when am I getting a new daddy?”.  Those were the words from my little boy who will be 5 years old in just 4 short days.  This is a question he has been asking me since he was 2.5/3 years old.  As a parent, we want to be able to give our children everything their heart desires… especially if it is something that means so much like this.  Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to give him this yet.  My only response I know to say is… “When God is ready, he will send us someone very special!”… today I asked Landon why he wants a dad in his life… his response was sweet as he says “so I can have a daddy to play with”.  “And I want a baby brother.”  You could tell he had been thinking about this for a few minutes before he asked me.  Then, like his strong little self… he just went right back to playing with the bubbles in the bathtub like it was no big deal.

Truth is… my heart falls every time he mentions this to me.  I know life sometimes gives us things that we do not understand, but it hurts worse when there is an innocent child involved.  I do not understand why God chose us.  Why He chose Landon to endure this.  I do not understand a lot of things.  I do know that I can not allow myself to dwell on the sadness and the things we do not have right now.

What we can do… is love.  Love every moment you have with those you care about.  Life can get so busy and hectic that we sometimes forget the small things and the small moments that mean so much… moments that we may not truly appreciate until they are no longer there.  Play with your children, be there for them, and do everything you can to show them how much you love them.  If you have someone special in your life… cherish everything and be kind.  Love with your whole heart and when there are struggles, communicate and figure it out in love, patience and kindness.  Not all relationships work out and that is okay.  But, what is important is to always show kindness and love in all situations.  I will keep praying for strength and will continue to pray that God gives Landon strength and understanding in these moments like we had today.  We do not always understand things in life, but we have to have Faith that all things will work out the way they are meant to… as long as we are true to ourselves and are our BEST selves!